'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
Burn it all down
As my anger reigns'

Well..... for the whole of last weekend i was preparing for my exams that was to take place on Monday this week. But as i was busy studying, my mind was also busy at the same time thinking of what are the things that might happen to me once i got back to the office after my leave. WHY would i be thinking about work while i am studying for a impt exam. Well, it concerns the stability of my work, the amount of time that i might be able to survive there. Let me take it from the top.

Last week, i took leave on friday to prepare for my exams... nonthing unusual about that... So while i was studying at home going through the numerous facts that i had to remember, suddenly my heart felt as if someone had died or that the world was gonna come to an end and i told myself that something bad was gonna to happen real soon... Then lo and behold, somethng really bad did happen to me. At around 8+ in the nite, my boss sms me asking me to give him a call once i am free... so i did call... And he ask me if anyone told me anything today... so i said no truthfully... and he said that he have something impt to tell me and if it was convient to talk right now....

"lights went out in my head" when he said that... and i replied yes and asked him to continue... so.. he told me that the is a change in the reporting structure from here onwards and that my entire team was gonna be transferred to another persons leadership. We would no longer be working under my boss and will be reporting to someone else from here on. And i was like "WTF" why is think happening...!! So i naturally asked my boss what would become of him after this transferal of leadership, so he said that he would be doing IS (info sec).. and that he would be reporting to someone else instead of directly under the big boss... So while i am still in shock.. he asked me what i felt of this change and i told him that i needed to think about this before i could answer...and so after some other exchange of words i ended the call..with a deep digust for myself.... the deepest disgust that i felt for myself for this year...

Well... my boss was already hinting to us of this change for the entire week before this happened... he was calling us for meetings in the pantry suddenly and he would go about giving us advices how to work around the place, how to deal with certain ppl, how he was told to give a one page cv to the big boss for each of us...and some comments about how we could improve ourselves... And all the while i was still digesting these advices wondering why all the sudden change... never thinking about the future... and finally when i was told the news i was so angry at myself for not really thinking about the words that my boss said. Cause it all relates to a previous article that i read on the internet about the 5 signs that your work is about to be outsourced... Firstly your work comes under careful eye by others, secondly your boss is asked to do a documentation about its employee's work scope and thirdly a full documentation of the work processes that have been done or planning to be completed.

Haizz... so my fate is now in some other person's hands whom which i have no accurate idea of and whom i feel from my heart is not a good person. Maybe i have done too many evil things these past few years... hahaha... am i gona have to switch jobs again???