Its finally wednesday, and i finally managed to add the 1000+ users to a teamsite which so that they can do some survey thingy.... and lo and behold, after just 1 minutes, i got 80 over unread emails in my mailbox. And in just under 30 minutes i managed to accumulate 100+ unread mails pertaining to the survey mail that i have just sent... amazing..
well... thats the interesting thing for today... well.. now on to the not so interesting part.....well... my boss asked me to create a site for someone whom have gone to heaven as requested by my big boss.... of which i did, and the big boss even thanked me for my work... but then, my boss had also mentioned of this creation of a site to my fake supervisor, but then didnt commit to get him to do it... so this "supervisor" of mine asked me to create the site the next day... but then i had already completed this work, so i informed him of my completion, but then he thought that i had completed the work as requested by him and he went back to inform the boss of the completion..... sianzz... trying to get "glam" from my work again.... Why WHY why does this kinda things always happen to me... lalalala.... then end....
Friday, December 09, 2005
hmm... wao is been so long since i have updated my life happenings here..nearly two months wor..
well... surprise to everyone i am still working at my last work location, no job hopping for me till next year bah..hee..
well... so far i have experienced a major change in my work proceedures after a change in boss, people seem to see me in a different light from before..and i am still trying to figure out wat my boss's opinion of me..... well.. i have been interacting with more ppl from more departments and sending more and more emails out to ppl....
i dun understand why everywhere i go there would be a point in time where my collegue whom has been teaching me would leave the company to go to a better workplace... and i might have to take over into a bigger role... why WHY WHY me!!!!...
haizz.. well my collegue who has been coaching me on the various functions/features/administration/structure on sharepoint is leaving and i was wondering if i should volunteer to my boss to take on his role in the future... but firstly i must explain something first... since my transfer to another boss, my new boss came out with an organisation chart structure and it so happens tat i am not placed directly under one intermediate perm staff but i am housed in between two intermediate perm staffs.... so being the always trying to step over authority me feels tat since im not put under someone directly i can always choose to liase directly with the boss instead of going to the intermediate and getting the intermediate to then pass on the message to the boss..... but then one of the two intermediate persons that i am under seems to be trying to take control of me and my collegue.... telling us to do things and keeping him in the loop instead of keeping the boss in the loop...and this guy here whom i will now refer to as "inbetween man" has been trying to get us to impart him with all the knowledge that we have with regards to sharepoint.... but then we feel threated when imparting knowledge to him as he always seems to be eagle eyeing our work proccedures and work, and we know for a fact that he has not much work left for him as his the system he was working on has already stabilised and if he doesnt take on new systems his future would not be so bright..... inbetween man likes to speak on behalf of the boss making us route all our work to him so that he can then report it up to the boss.... hereby making a loss of the value of our work....haizz...
i just dun like him..... dun like him forcing down his control on us..... i never work well under a evil boss who has not gained my respect.... RESPECT is very important to me... if u didnt earn it from me dun expect me to give u back respect.... haizz... this is the end of blog post...
well... surprise to everyone i am still working at my last work location, no job hopping for me till next year bah..hee..
well... so far i have experienced a major change in my work proceedures after a change in boss, people seem to see me in a different light from before..and i am still trying to figure out wat my boss's opinion of me..... well.. i have been interacting with more ppl from more departments and sending more and more emails out to ppl....
i dun understand why everywhere i go there would be a point in time where my collegue whom has been teaching me would leave the company to go to a better workplace... and i might have to take over into a bigger role... why WHY WHY me!!!!...
haizz.. well my collegue who has been coaching me on the various functions/features/administration/structure on sharepoint is leaving and i was wondering if i should volunteer to my boss to take on his role in the future... but firstly i must explain something first... since my transfer to another boss, my new boss came out with an organisation chart structure and it so happens tat i am not placed directly under one intermediate perm staff but i am housed in between two intermediate perm staffs.... so being the always trying to step over authority me feels tat since im not put under someone directly i can always choose to liase directly with the boss instead of going to the intermediate and getting the intermediate to then pass on the message to the boss..... but then one of the two intermediate persons that i am under seems to be trying to take control of me and my collegue.... telling us to do things and keeping him in the loop instead of keeping the boss in the loop...and this guy here whom i will now refer to as "inbetween man" has been trying to get us to impart him with all the knowledge that we have with regards to sharepoint.... but then we feel threated when imparting knowledge to him as he always seems to be eagle eyeing our work proccedures and work, and we know for a fact that he has not much work left for him as his the system he was working on has already stabilised and if he doesnt take on new systems his future would not be so bright..... inbetween man likes to speak on behalf of the boss making us route all our work to him so that he can then report it up to the boss.... hereby making a loss of the value of our work....haizz...
i just dun like him..... dun like him forcing down his control on us..... i never work well under a evil boss who has not gained my respect.... RESPECT is very important to me... if u didnt earn it from me dun expect me to give u back respect.... haizz... this is the end of blog post...
Saturday, October 15, 2005
'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
Burn it all down
As my anger reigns'
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
Burn it all down
As my anger reigns'
Well..... for the whole of last weekend i was preparing for my exams that was to take place on Monday this week. But as i was busy studying, my mind was also busy at the same time thinking of what are the things that might happen to me once i got back to the office after my leave. WHY would i be thinking about work while i am studying for a impt exam. Well, it concerns the stability of my work, the amount of time that i might be able to survive there. Let me take it from the top.
Last week, i took leave on friday to prepare for my exams... nonthing unusual about that... So while i was studying at home going through the numerous facts that i had to remember, suddenly my heart felt as if someone had died or that the world was gonna come to an end and i told myself that something bad was gonna to happen real soon... Then lo and behold, somethng really bad did happen to me. At around 8+ in the nite, my boss sms me asking me to give him a call once i am free... so i did call... And he ask me if anyone told me anything today... so i said no truthfully... and he said that he have something impt to tell me and if it was convient to talk right now....
"lights went out in my head" when he said that... and i replied yes and asked him to continue... so.. he told me that the is a change in the reporting structure from here onwards and that my entire team was gonna be transferred to another persons leadership. We would no longer be working under my boss and will be reporting to someone else from here on. And i was like "WTF" why is think happening...!! So i naturally asked my boss what would become of him after this transferal of leadership, so he said that he would be doing IS (info sec).. and that he would be reporting to someone else instead of directly under the big boss... So while i am still in shock.. he asked me what i felt of this change and i told him that i needed to think about this before i could answer...and so after some other exchange of words i ended the call..with a deep digust for myself.... the deepest disgust that i felt for myself for this year...
Well... my boss was already hinting to us of this change for the entire week before this happened... he was calling us for meetings in the pantry suddenly and he would go about giving us advices how to work around the place, how to deal with certain ppl, how he was told to give a one page cv to the big boss for each of us...and some comments about how we could improve ourselves... And all the while i was still digesting these advices wondering why all the sudden change... never thinking about the future... and finally when i was told the news i was so angry at myself for not really thinking about the words that my boss said. Cause it all relates to a previous article that i read on the internet about the 5 signs that your work is about to be outsourced... Firstly your work comes under careful eye by others, secondly your boss is asked to do a documentation about its employee's work scope and thirdly a full documentation of the work processes that have been done or planning to be completed.
Haizz... so my fate is now in some other person's hands whom which i have no accurate idea of and whom i feel from my heart is not a good person. Maybe i have done too many evil things these past few years... hahaha... am i gona have to switch jobs again???
Friday, September 30, 2005
Well.... just came back from my department outing to the turf club today. There was a bus transporting everyone to the place and we even got to leave work one hour earlier... how shiok can it be...lalalala... Hehe... it was quite an interesting experience betting on the horse of your choice and shouting like a mad women hoping that your horse would run out first.... In the first race, my big boss had already won some money while we were still figuring out how to play the game. Then in the second race, my big boss won again and some of my collegues were saying that he must be analysing the race in his room all day or he must have bought over the horses... hehe... Well... i bet for a few rounds and i lost $20.00 in total thanks to my collegues who wanted to leave the place earlier. If i had stayed on till the end of the races, who knows how much i would have lost... lalala
Now i wanna tok about something else.... something painful... something i should have cried about but didint.... that is.... my mp3 player was stolen in the office..... my Creative ZEN Micro was stolen while i was away for my lunch... the thief tok the player, the headphones, the stand, the pouch, and even the charger..... EVEN the charger.... and the thief managed to do it without messing up my table.... definately the person would missplace a few items in order to remove the charger, but no... my table was in its original position...haizz... Well.. i believe that most ppl would get angry, sad or mad after they have been robbed... and all i felt that day was "did it happened to me???"... and i just asked around a few people, and let it go... I know that i would never see it again no matter how hard i would look for it...so i didnt feel anything...
From this experience i got to know the people in my department better i think, all of my team members came to console me even though i didnt tell them personally that my player was lost, and some other ppl also console me... those ppl i will remember.. for in times of need... true friends or REAL people spirits will show... so now i am again in the search for a mp3 player to replace my lost one... anyone who have any lobang please tell me....
Now i wanna tok about something else.... something painful... something i should have cried about but didint.... that is.... my mp3 player was stolen in the office..... my Creative ZEN Micro was stolen while i was away for my lunch... the thief tok the player, the headphones, the stand, the pouch, and even the charger..... EVEN the charger.... and the thief managed to do it without messing up my table.... definately the person would missplace a few items in order to remove the charger, but no... my table was in its original position...haizz... Well.. i believe that most ppl would get angry, sad or mad after they have been robbed... and all i felt that day was "did it happened to me???"... and i just asked around a few people, and let it go... I know that i would never see it again no matter how hard i would look for it...so i didnt feel anything...
From this experience i got to know the people in my department better i think, all of my team members came to console me even though i didnt tell them personally that my player was lost, and some other ppl also console me... those ppl i will remember.. for in times of need... true friends or REAL people spirits will show... so now i am again in the search for a mp3 player to replace my lost one... anyone who have any lobang please tell me....
====THE END====
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Less then one week ago i turned 23 yr old. Wasnt a eventful birthday this year, didnt have any celebrations but i am thankful for all the birthday wishes... my team mates even bought a handphone pouch for me.... so happy... lalala. Then today my boss gave the entire team a treat as sort of belated birthday celebrations for me... hehe
Speaking about today... today has been quite a lousy day for me... firstly i found out that i had someone managed to let my handphone get connected to the Wap network for god knows how long.... and secondly i got involved in office politics.
Well.... i recieved an email from my team mate asking me to respond to some error that some user was facing while he was accessing the Sharepoint portal site. So i discussed with my teammate on the kind of respond that i should give to the user. So i forwarded the email that was sent to me to the affected person. Who knows that affected person is some BIG BIG shot in the company... and those other collegues who were discussing the resolution in the email where saying why i forward the mail with their conversations attached as well... then say that i am unprofessional by doing that lar... saying my respond to that user's error was not sent in a professional manner...saying that i should have give a better drafted response to that person.... blar blar blar.... then the person who buai song forwarded the email to one of the directors in the department saying that someone in my team would respond to the error... and that director forward the email to the managing director... and you know... the small matter becomes a huge tumor in your back... and im the one whos going to carry the tumor around...WtF man... My boss was saying that the department that we are all working in plays politics every other second which he didnt like and i believed him but not until today did i experience the FULL BLAST of the political effect... So now i going to see how the wind blows and pray hard that i did enough good deeds in my life to tide me over this... hahaha..
Speaking about today... today has been quite a lousy day for me... firstly i found out that i had someone managed to let my handphone get connected to the Wap network for god knows how long.... and secondly i got involved in office politics.
Well.... i recieved an email from my team mate asking me to respond to some error that some user was facing while he was accessing the Sharepoint portal site. So i discussed with my teammate on the kind of respond that i should give to the user. So i forwarded the email that was sent to me to the affected person. Who knows that affected person is some BIG BIG shot in the company... and those other collegues who were discussing the resolution in the email where saying why i forward the mail with their conversations attached as well... then say that i am unprofessional by doing that lar... saying my respond to that user's error was not sent in a professional manner...saying that i should have give a better drafted response to that person.... blar blar blar.... then the person who buai song forwarded the email to one of the directors in the department saying that someone in my team would respond to the error... and that director forward the email to the managing director... and you know... the small matter becomes a huge tumor in your back... and im the one whos going to carry the tumor around...WtF man... My boss was saying that the department that we are all working in plays politics every other second which he didnt like and i believed him but not until today did i experience the FULL BLAST of the political effect... So now i going to see how the wind blows and pray hard that i did enough good deeds in my life to tide me over this... hahaha..
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Hmm... this webpage seems familar.. oh wait, i saw this webpage last week... which means that i only update my blog once a week. Amazing!!! (sees ppl fainting in background...)
Well, once more week has passed and my bday is slowly creeping up behind my shoulders. NOOOOooo... what shld i get for myself this year?? maybe a bottle of air prehaps... hmm... Well, yesterday my department celebrated the birthday of my big boss who turns 49 this year. It was a very interesting experience to be part of the celebration. We even secretly went into his room while he was away for meeting to scribble birthday wishes on his whiteboard. So cheapo right.. hee... then we had the celebration in a conference room where everyone waited in the dark to "fake" surprise him when he steps into the room. So we sing song for him, let him give his 5 secs worth of speech and take pictures of him with one mountain of "Shou Tao" and then everyone rushed for the food. We had self service nasi lemak, with roasted pig, and muffins, and satay, otak... and Ben and Jerry ice cream... lalala.. Make me think of my bday celebration last yr where we had soon kwei and cake.... hee
I think i am being condemmed by one of the VPs in the department. First she remembers my name (ppl usually remember the names of ppl they hate) and secondly she diaos me everytime we accidently look at each other. Isit chemistry or isit comdemment?? lets wait and see...
Well, once more week has passed and my bday is slowly creeping up behind my shoulders. NOOOOooo... what shld i get for myself this year?? maybe a bottle of air prehaps... hmm... Well, yesterday my department celebrated the birthday of my big boss who turns 49 this year. It was a very interesting experience to be part of the celebration. We even secretly went into his room while he was away for meeting to scribble birthday wishes on his whiteboard. So cheapo right.. hee... then we had the celebration in a conference room where everyone waited in the dark to "fake" surprise him when he steps into the room. So we sing song for him, let him give his 5 secs worth of speech and take pictures of him with one mountain of "Shou Tao" and then everyone rushed for the food. We had self service nasi lemak, with roasted pig, and muffins, and satay, otak... and Ben and Jerry ice cream... lalala.. Make me think of my bday celebration last yr where we had soon kwei and cake.... hee
I think i am being condemmed by one of the VPs in the department. First she remembers my name (ppl usually remember the names of ppl they hate) and secondly she diaos me everytime we accidently look at each other. Isit chemistry or isit comdemment?? lets wait and see...
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Another week has come and gone just like that. Work was interesting as usual as i am still in the learning process. Well, my collegue whom i was supposed to work with went on leave for three days and i had to back him up. Luckily no major problems happened that i couldnt handle while he was away. Just that i had to attend some meetings and give some insights on the server configurations.... which im still not very powderful in... I learnt of some server optimization tasks and proceedures that could be done.. and some other things..
One thing interesting was once my collegue came back from work, nobody ask me for help le..cause im not a pro and just a backup in other ppls eyes...well..if thats the case i need to work harder on my job performance le.....somemore my boss praised my collegues but forgot about me even though i took part in the same work.... well... maybe he forgot bah... or because i didnt make it clear in my timesheet entries... lalalala... I think i am trying to jump 100 metres when i can only reach 50..i dun like to be looked down upon... or think lightly of when im not in the correct situations.... I WAN TO BE POWDERFUL!!... (in my next life bah)...
COMEX started this thursday at Suntec City. Went there after lunch twice to source for a ADSL router and RAM for my desktop. I managed to find a bargain from one of the Sim Lim vendors for a ADSL router with wireless capabilities, builtin modem, and 4 ethernet ports. This shop was selling it at 40 dollars less then the manufacturer's booth which was just next to it. Cool huh... hehe... The installation of the router was quite simple, but the advanced configuration took a while to navigate around. Well... that the things that i wanna say today.. stay tuned.
One thing interesting was once my collegue came back from work, nobody ask me for help le..cause im not a pro and just a backup in other ppls eyes...well..if thats the case i need to work harder on my job performance le.....somemore my boss praised my collegues but forgot about me even though i took part in the same work.... well... maybe he forgot bah... or because i didnt make it clear in my timesheet entries... lalalala... I think i am trying to jump 100 metres when i can only reach 50..i dun like to be looked down upon... or think lightly of when im not in the correct situations.... I WAN TO BE POWDERFUL!!... (in my next life bah)...
COMEX started this thursday at Suntec City. Went there after lunch twice to source for a ADSL router and RAM for my desktop. I managed to find a bargain from one of the Sim Lim vendors for a ADSL router with wireless capabilities, builtin modem, and 4 ethernet ports. This shop was selling it at 40 dollars less then the manufacturer's booth which was just next to it. Cool huh... hehe... The installation of the router was quite simple, but the advanced configuration took a while to navigate around. Well... that the things that i wanna say today.. stay tuned.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Hee... went to play CS with my collegues after work on friday. It seems that the guys at my department would meet for online gaming every friday for the past few weeks. Hmm..well i was invited to join them after they knew that i had played CS before. So this friday my collegue and my boss went for CS after the conference which we were attending together. It seems to my collegues that i was a better player then both of them and they ganged up against me, pitting two of them against one of me, but luckily i managed to prove them right... haha..feels great to mow down ur boss in a battle.. But after we changed to a different game map, i was so trashed by both of them that i was so screaming "No Fair!" while they were enjoying the fun of winning... lalala..men.. So we played for a while until some other collegues arrived to join us and soon, we had a 10 ppl strong CS playing team... lalala... It got very funny at some point when one of my members in the terrorist team mowed the opposing team down in a machine gun firing non stop everywhere.. killing 4 ppl in one huge sweep and everyone was like "WTF!!... haha"... its been so long since i have enjoyed myself like that eversince i left S**... cant wait for the gathering in September.....lalalala...
Well.... this is the end of my dunno why i posted this blog blog... lalalala
Well.... this is the end of my dunno why i posted this blog blog... lalalala
Saturday, August 27, 2005
For the past three days i was attending Tech Ed Aisa 2005 which was held at Suntec City. It was a very interesting experience for me meeting IT folks from all over Singapore and listening to the tracks by the various speakers. There were tracks on Security, Information Management, Data Services, Infrastructure Upgrades and .NET Application Development. I learnt of the tools that were going made available on Visual Studio 2005. This includes drag and drop functionality and built in security functions to enhance your codes. I also learnt more about Sharepoint services and its tight integrations with Office 2003, and Project 2003. One of the speaker even showed us a tool which was able merge two documents into one file extension making the other file invisible. This is one of the few ways that virus could be embeded in unknown attachments and files. Sounds cool huh.... knowing the various kinds of hacks that you can use... to rule the world...!!!
I felt very fortunate to be attending this conference cause firstly, i think only 4 ppl in my company/department got to go cause my big boss requested for 4 tickets only(no wonder onli 4), secondly its because im only a contract staff in the company and yet they bothered to send me to this kinda events, thirdly i a noob(newbie) to the company and yet i got to go instead of the other older staffs around... hmm..and lastly the best thing is that i got a free laptop haversack... hahaha
Saying all these i am feeling angry at myself for not appreciating my previous fantasticly wonderful, good boss in my first job. But after 2 unhappy experience, i have met with another good boss with super powers that i am so swear that i am going to give my very best for the team to compliment my good life... lalalala... watch out for "SUPER pefe!!!"...
I felt very fortunate to be attending this conference cause firstly, i think only 4 ppl in my company/department got to go cause my big boss requested for 4 tickets only(no wonder onli 4), secondly its because im only a contract staff in the company and yet they bothered to send me to this kinda events, thirdly i a noob(newbie) to the company and yet i got to go instead of the other older staffs around... hmm..and lastly the best thing is that i got a free laptop haversack... hahaha
Saying all these i am feeling angry at myself for not appreciating my previous fantasticly wonderful, good boss in my first job. But after 2 unhappy experience, i have met with another good boss with super powers that i am so swear that i am going to give my very best for the team to compliment my good life... lalalala... watch out for "SUPER pefe!!!"...
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Its been nearly a month since i wrote anything here. Didnt have the mood or urge to pen down my thoughts as i was kept busy by work and my assignments. Haizz..
Well... changed my job for the 2nd time this year liao. To me its the second change this year, but to everyone else it seems to be the **th change.. haha. Now i am working in the banking sector again... this time not doing helpdesk work but doing some knowledge management stuff on MS Sharepoint. The first job after my stint at SIA i left after 1 month, the second one i left after 3 months, so this time around am i going to leave after 9 months. Hmm.. Well i hope i wun leave this job so soon, or should i say that i love this job so much and the workplace that i dun wanna leave. The greatest difference that i felt on my first day on the job is that i didnt hate myself at all. I was all comfortable strutting around the office meeting new people new faces. Sometimes you just know that you have found the best place for yourself the minute u set ur eyes on it. This is so the case with this new job that i am in. Hehe...
So in this new working place that i managed to find some CS kakis... hehe.. Well.. my boss and some other collegues would hang together for a CS session after work on fridays and i was invited to join them after i kicked my boss's ass in an arcade session. Haha. But then it wasnt so much of a kick in the ass, i was sort of lasting longer in a game. Once after lunch we walked past an arcade in Suntec and decide to go in to play the "World Combat" game, where 4ppl would play the role of soldiers shooting down skeletons. As you progress on the game, your ranking in the army would rise, and you can even take on the role of a leader amoung ur teammates. I sorted of became the leader and when my collegues/boss finally dieded in the game, i was promoted to General and the my collegues in game characters saluting to me. Hee... cool huh.. beating ur boss in arcade games.... haha..
Well... i have more updates that i wanna write today, but im feeling sleepy now. Maybe i will post again tomorrow.
Well... changed my job for the 2nd time this year liao. To me its the second change this year, but to everyone else it seems to be the **th change.. haha. Now i am working in the banking sector again... this time not doing helpdesk work but doing some knowledge management stuff on MS Sharepoint. The first job after my stint at SIA i left after 1 month, the second one i left after 3 months, so this time around am i going to leave after 9 months. Hmm.. Well i hope i wun leave this job so soon, or should i say that i love this job so much and the workplace that i dun wanna leave. The greatest difference that i felt on my first day on the job is that i didnt hate myself at all. I was all comfortable strutting around the office meeting new people new faces. Sometimes you just know that you have found the best place for yourself the minute u set ur eyes on it. This is so the case with this new job that i am in. Hehe...
So in this new working place that i managed to find some CS kakis... hehe.. Well.. my boss and some other collegues would hang together for a CS session after work on fridays and i was invited to join them after i kicked my boss's ass in an arcade session. Haha. But then it wasnt so much of a kick in the ass, i was sort of lasting longer in a game. Once after lunch we walked past an arcade in Suntec and decide to go in to play the "World Combat" game, where 4ppl would play the role of soldiers shooting down skeletons. As you progress on the game, your ranking in the army would rise, and you can even take on the role of a leader amoung ur teammates. I sorted of became the leader and when my collegues/boss finally dieded in the game, i was promoted to General and the my collegues in game characters saluting to me. Hee... cool huh.. beating ur boss in arcade games.... haha..
Well... i have more updates that i wanna write today, but im feeling sleepy now. Maybe i will post again tomorrow.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Yesterday i was supposed to submit my assignment to my tutor. But then last minute i discovered that my team mate didnt manage to include a "under construction" page to the website that we were to submit to our tutor. My team mate was supposed to do it on sunday, then i not so sure wether he did it or not so i posted a reminder message in our group discussion forum.... then that guy happily said that he forgot about it as we didnt discuss it in the group discussion..... KILLL.... and then he also said that he didnt have a CD writer with he so he couldnt burn the CD with the additional page for submission. So me and my friend pek cek and decided to volunteer to do it lor...
So i went about to submit the assigment which was due yesterday today... hahaha... the postage was 80 cents wor.. First time i submit my assignment using the correct postage amout... lalalala
Well... i came back from my lunch and the receptionist informed me to go into the boss room for a while. So i thought that he wanted to scold me or something.... die... But the lo and behold, my boss tell me that there is something wrong with his system, something about a virus that in present in his laptop and that he couldnt work on it at all. So i went about to check whats causing the issue... i restarted his PC and saw the virus detected prompt, then i also saw a spyware scanning software that is trying to start scanning... so i let it scan.. but then halfway i got the MS error report thing... The popup that lets you decide wether or not to submit the error report, dun submit, or debug. So i choose not to submit cause i dun think it works for this case, but then once i clicked the button, the system auto refreshes the screen and back to the original MS popup. So i tried the same option again, and same thing happen, and so i pek cek try the submit option..... And guess what... the screen refresh itself again and the popup come again..
Then i tested to reboot into safe mode to try to do a diagnostic test on the laptop.... but still cannot.... KILL... so i tried to restore working confgurations setting... also cannot.. also same..always hang at the same MS popup... haizz.. Whats interesting is that i saw an icon for online dating service on the desktop, which would mean that a spyware/adware is definately installed on the laptop...because... MY BOSS IS MARRIED!!! why would he need an online dating service... So i did the final thing that i could do which was to do a system restore to last friday settings... which would definately work... hahaha
So i fix the problem... and went back to me desk, then my boss come back from meeting ask me wat happen. Then i say got some weird antispyware remover program installed... and i ask him if he installed anything... Then he say.. nope.. i dun think i installed any programs.... So in my mind i was saying "If u neber install the thing... you think casper help u install one ar!!!"... wanna bluff also dun give this kinda of excuse lar... haizz... lousy actor.. So this is the end of my todays complain...
So i went about to submit the assigment which was due yesterday today... hahaha... the postage was 80 cents wor.. First time i submit my assignment using the correct postage amout... lalalala
Well... i came back from my lunch and the receptionist informed me to go into the boss room for a while. So i thought that he wanted to scold me or something.... die... But the lo and behold, my boss tell me that there is something wrong with his system, something about a virus that in present in his laptop and that he couldnt work on it at all. So i went about to check whats causing the issue... i restarted his PC and saw the virus detected prompt, then i also saw a spyware scanning software that is trying to start scanning... so i let it scan.. but then halfway i got the MS error report thing... The popup that lets you decide wether or not to submit the error report, dun submit, or debug. So i choose not to submit cause i dun think it works for this case, but then once i clicked the button, the system auto refreshes the screen and back to the original MS popup. So i tried the same option again, and same thing happen, and so i pek cek try the submit option..... And guess what... the screen refresh itself again and the popup come again..
Then i tested to reboot into safe mode to try to do a diagnostic test on the laptop.... but still cannot.... KILL... so i tried to restore working confgurations setting... also cannot.. also same..always hang at the same MS popup... haizz.. Whats interesting is that i saw an icon for online dating service on the desktop, which would mean that a spyware/adware is definately installed on the laptop...because... MY BOSS IS MARRIED!!! why would he need an online dating service... So i did the final thing that i could do which was to do a system restore to last friday settings... which would definately work... hahaha
So i fix the problem... and went back to me desk, then my boss come back from meeting ask me wat happen. Then i say got some weird antispyware remover program installed... and i ask him if he installed anything... Then he say.. nope.. i dun think i installed any programs.... So in my mind i was saying "If u neber install the thing... you think casper help u install one ar!!!"... wanna bluff also dun give this kinda of excuse lar... haizz... lousy actor.. So this is the end of my todays complain...
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Hmm... long time neber post any blogs liao... I was simply too busy doing all my assignments during the past month... even had to do research on the functionalities of a blog site and what kind of functionalities should a blog hosting site offer..
Well.... 5 more days and i am officially working in my new place for 3 months liao... Times flies past really quickly when u are not in pain... haha. I can still remember dreading to reach my office in the morning when i was doing my helpdesk work at some undisclosed bank..
Wah liew eh..... just got off the phone for a helpdesk number for a software that my company is using. I told them specifically what the error message that i am facing, i even sent them a screendump of the error message as requested of them. All the above was done at 10.12am in the morning. While i was on the phone with the helpdesk representative, she told me that she would have to go and look it up. Then i said ok, and i waited for their response. Well.... i waited and waited until 2++ pm then i received another email from them asking me if there were any other popups that occured before the one i sent them. I said no, then that person ask me to check my configurations which i did... then that person say that she has to go back and check again... which i say ok. BUT THEN... i told her to call me back once she has checked.........which she didnt call....after around 1hr. Then i get fed up and called them back.... i have to call them at malaysia back to check on her progress cause it is taking too long and i have explained to her to call me back once she has checked, so i called her and she said that she has sent an email to me explaining the steps to take.... but i said TO CALL.... haizz...
Feeling very irritated at the service level, i decided to get more info out of the person before hangin up the line, cause i think i will take another centry for that person to check for me again and email me back instead of calling me back lor. But the answers that person give is "I not sure", you have to test it on ur test server. Which i replied that i dont have any test servers. Then that person says that "YOU DONT HAVE ANY TEST SERVERS!!" with the voice like see me no up like that voice.... make me so angry.. Then i said :"YES I DONT HAVE A TEST SERVER".. so how do i ensure that the script you send me works. So i ask that person what should i do in the event that the script fails... she says... "Call us back" and we will check again.... Good liao lor, firstly, u dont gurantee that the scripts work, secondly u make stupid unresponsible remarks to customers, thirdly you are not giving the best solutions to your customers, you just give the solutions that you think will work.... WTF...haizz.. Make me so the fed up that i nearly wanted to speak to the manager.... which makes me feel another feeling.... "Was i this lousy when i was working as a Helpdesk analyst last time????".... hmmm...
My message for this blog today is that..... "*A**" software technical support sucks!!!!!!
Well.... 5 more days and i am officially working in my new place for 3 months liao... Times flies past really quickly when u are not in pain... haha. I can still remember dreading to reach my office in the morning when i was doing my helpdesk work at some undisclosed bank..
Wah liew eh..... just got off the phone for a helpdesk number for a software that my company is using. I told them specifically what the error message that i am facing, i even sent them a screendump of the error message as requested of them. All the above was done at 10.12am in the morning. While i was on the phone with the helpdesk representative, she told me that she would have to go and look it up. Then i said ok, and i waited for their response. Well.... i waited and waited until 2++ pm then i received another email from them asking me if there were any other popups that occured before the one i sent them. I said no, then that person ask me to check my configurations which i did... then that person say that she has to go back and check again... which i say ok. BUT THEN... i told her to call me back once she has checked.........which she didnt call....after around 1hr. Then i get fed up and called them back.... i have to call them at malaysia back to check on her progress cause it is taking too long and i have explained to her to call me back once she has checked, so i called her and she said that she has sent an email to me explaining the steps to take.... but i said TO CALL.... haizz...
Feeling very irritated at the service level, i decided to get more info out of the person before hangin up the line, cause i think i will take another centry for that person to check for me again and email me back instead of calling me back lor. But the answers that person give is "I not sure", you have to test it on ur test server. Which i replied that i dont have any test servers. Then that person says that "YOU DONT HAVE ANY TEST SERVERS!!" with the voice like see me no up like that voice.... make me so angry.. Then i said :"YES I DONT HAVE A TEST SERVER".. so how do i ensure that the script you send me works. So i ask that person what should i do in the event that the script fails... she says... "Call us back" and we will check again.... Good liao lor, firstly, u dont gurantee that the scripts work, secondly u make stupid unresponsible remarks to customers, thirdly you are not giving the best solutions to your customers, you just give the solutions that you think will work.... WTF...haizz.. Make me so the fed up that i nearly wanted to speak to the manager.... which makes me feel another feeling.... "Was i this lousy when i was working as a Helpdesk analyst last time????".... hmmm...
My message for this blog today is that..... "*A**" software technical support sucks!!!!!!
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Ooooo.. its another tuesday that i decided to update this blog of mine here. Well..last week i went to support my friend in an starwars cosplay competition. Sounds interesting right?.. well.. let me explain cosplay to ppl who leave on no mans island. Cosplay means dressing up in costumes of fictional characters. Usually ppl dress up as japanese managa characters to attend conventions... blar blar blar.. So that day my friend dressed up as a starwars character lor... Guess what he dressed up as?? Well.. most ppl might guess stormtrooper or obiwan kenobi or even darth vader... but then most ppl are wrong.. including me. My friend dressed up as a fighter pilot wor!!!... cool huh.. Well.. i would have attached some photos here if not for my lousy photography skills. Most of the photos that i took came out horrid as my hands were shaking for no reason. Hehe.
The next thing that i wanna say here is that i seem to be quite settled down in my new workplace liao... since i am not so the looking out for new job opportunities liao.. Maybe its due to the setback at my last interview that has set me back on my job hunting for at least one month or so.. to recuperate from my endless searches..and to gain alittle more job experience so that any future employer would not have the excuse that i have a tendency to job hop like a kangaroo.... as i have left my second job after just a one month stint and if i were to leave this job now it would also lead to another one month stint... hehehe...so thats all folks... to a bright future for everyone.. including a slacking lousy employee me.
The next thing that i wanna say here is that i seem to be quite settled down in my new workplace liao... since i am not so the looking out for new job opportunities liao.. Maybe its due to the setback at my last interview that has set me back on my job hunting for at least one month or so.. to recuperate from my endless searches..and to gain alittle more job experience so that any future employer would not have the excuse that i have a tendency to job hop like a kangaroo.... as i have left my second job after just a one month stint and if i were to leave this job now it would also lead to another one month stint... hehehe...so thats all folks... to a bright future for everyone.. including a slacking lousy employee me.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Wah.... today i worked till 7pm wor. I feel so the unlucky today... Firstly someone whose system's power supply failed suddenly tell me that he wants to retrieve his archive emails which are stored in his hard disk. Then i tell him that i would try and i went about trying to boot up other ppl's systems using his hard disk. After about 4 tries using 3 different systems, his harddisk still wouldnt bootup. So i went to tell him the truth that his harddisk had failed and that the only way to recover his mails was to go to the server and send him back all his mails. I also told him that if he was to die die to recover from the hard disk, it could be sent to some vendor who would be able to restore the data for around 100 dollars plus plus.....then he sort of like say send lar...then i give the huh!! face... and he went away.....
Monday, June 06, 2005
Last week i had quite alot of things to do, doing setting up of desktops, troubleshooting my own desktop...only to find out that the issue does not lie on my desktop itself..blar blar blar... I felt so exploited to do everything else that is not necessary but want to be done the things... blar blar blar.. i also dunno wat am i writing also.. lalala..
Well... there was the PC show last week at the Singapore Expo..i finally got myself an MP3 player.... something that i felt that i didnt need at all while i was working at SI*... cause i could listen to songs on my receiver... but after since i have been taking the North East Line to my workplace... which is fully underground... i have felt a desperate need to listen to music... Whats more is that i am not allowed to listen to music while at work... so this lead to my desire to get an MP3 player... And the MP3 player that i would liked to have must definately have a built in radio, so that i can still keep in touch with the outside world... and it must also have excellent sound quality... So i went to buy a MP3 player from creative.... Guess which one i bought. I believe nobody would believe that i would spend this kinda of money on a mp3 player.... I bought a "ZEN Micro" which has a capacity of 5GB... translating to about 2500 songs... which i dun think i can reach this kinda of capacity...
Well... there was the PC show last week at the Singapore Expo..i finally got myself an MP3 player.... something that i felt that i didnt need at all while i was working at SI*... cause i could listen to songs on my receiver... but after since i have been taking the North East Line to my workplace... which is fully underground... i have felt a desperate need to listen to music... Whats more is that i am not allowed to listen to music while at work... so this lead to my desire to get an MP3 player... And the MP3 player that i would liked to have must definately have a built in radio, so that i can still keep in touch with the outside world... and it must also have excellent sound quality... So i went to buy a MP3 player from creative.... Guess which one i bought. I believe nobody would believe that i would spend this kinda of money on a mp3 player.... I bought a "ZEN Micro" which has a capacity of 5GB... translating to about 2500 songs... which i dun think i can reach this kinda of capacity...
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Lala... today the three desktop systems that my comp ordered came today. Three IBM thinkcentres... yeah!!... Then the outsourced guys came along and taught me how to do the configurations this and that and finally informed me how to do the archiving of the emails... Speaking of the three desktops that came today, i learned to config one, config one myself, and while doing the configurations, the owners come to rush me for the machine.... Usually, i would feel very the frustrated when ppl are rushing me, but then today i no feelings.. WEIRD.. So i happily continue the configurations of the system.... Installing the antivirus, the time management program...blar blar blar...and finally when i sat down to configure the system that was for my own usage, the Network card failed on me.... and i went WHY ME!!!... WHY ME!!!... why the first two system for other ppl no problem, come to me got problem liao.... sianzz...
Then when wanna make payment for the machines, my side ppl keep on tell me that shldnt have paid cause one machine was not working very the well....and that my collegue would be held responsible if anything major were to happen to my machine... then i am the one affected lor.. Then happily my boss send me email yest nite regarding some email daemon message that he recieved regarding the mailbox quota of some singnet account which i have no idea what so ever. Haizz..life is not so the beautiful afterall... And then since my machine is the one affected, i cant reply the email that my boss sent me and i might be labelled as imcompetent as an IT support person.
Well... after all these sianz things that are happening to my life, i think that i shldnt be so complainly after my phone conversation with mag. It has been so long since we spoke, last time i email her she also dun reply one.. so sad.. then today i 'xing xue lai chao' SMS her some quiz.. and she msg me with her phone no... then we chatted lor. I learnt that she had to takeover someones job who has left the company suddenly due to some "classified" reasons... then she was not around when that person left and then that person did not had a chance to handover the stuff that he was doing... then mag sianzz.. and had to figure out everything by herself... and there is big chaos at her side as the previous person did not do until very the well and all the engines had overrun their hours making a big mess out of the situation... Then she informed me that s**dy was transferred back to her previous department... and kanna bullied again... which is very the sad... she was supposed to be transferred to another dept but then somehow that dept got extra hands, then she was transferred back and had to do shit work for other ppl again... SIANZZ.. So after hearing this, i feel that my fate is not so bad as my previous collegue..
Another well..... LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL... dont moan at what is being thrown at you cause somewhere out there, someone else is suffering from even worse treatment then the one you are getting... The end..
Then when wanna make payment for the machines, my side ppl keep on tell me that shldnt have paid cause one machine was not working very the well....and that my collegue would be held responsible if anything major were to happen to my machine... then i am the one affected lor.. Then happily my boss send me email yest nite regarding some email daemon message that he recieved regarding the mailbox quota of some singnet account which i have no idea what so ever. Haizz..life is not so the beautiful afterall... And then since my machine is the one affected, i cant reply the email that my boss sent me and i might be labelled as imcompetent as an IT support person.
Well... after all these sianz things that are happening to my life, i think that i shldnt be so complainly after my phone conversation with mag. It has been so long since we spoke, last time i email her she also dun reply one.. so sad.. then today i 'xing xue lai chao' SMS her some quiz.. and she msg me with her phone no... then we chatted lor. I learnt that she had to takeover someones job who has left the company suddenly due to some "classified" reasons... then she was not around when that person left and then that person did not had a chance to handover the stuff that he was doing... then mag sianzz.. and had to figure out everything by herself... and there is big chaos at her side as the previous person did not do until very the well and all the engines had overrun their hours making a big mess out of the situation... Then she informed me that s**dy was transferred back to her previous department... and kanna bullied again... which is very the sad... she was supposed to be transferred to another dept but then somehow that dept got extra hands, then she was transferred back and had to do shit work for other ppl again... SIANZZ.. So after hearing this, i feel that my fate is not so bad as my previous collegue..
Another well..... LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL... dont moan at what is being thrown at you cause somewhere out there, someone else is suffering from even worse treatment then the one you are getting... The end..
Friday, May 20, 2005
I knew it... i knew that they were discussing about me just now in the room... hurrays for third instinct.... Happily after my collegue came out of the meeting just now, she tell me that she would be giving me alot of things to do...with regards to accounting. Then i say, "I dont know anything about accounting!", then she say is some checking and data entry into excel sheets lor... and repeated herself saying that have alot of things to do... After she said that, i knew that the boss must be thinking that i have nonthing else to do all day, and no major problems happen at all, so they have to maximise usage of employee and ask me the do something which would be very the time consuming.. and taxing.. GOD HELP ME!!! Its no wonder some previous ppl left the company after joining so soon..
Well... lo and behold... after my lunch today and after doing some work, my boss laptop hanged.. couldnt "Ctrl, Alt, Del" at all. Had to do a power cycle of the laptop, which also means to force power down... then booted up in safe mood... can bootup.. then after i wanted to boot up normally, it hanged on me again. After a few more similar attempts, i recalled a common problem in my previous job. So i tried to take the laptop off the docking station.... which i have never done before.... then i was there trying here and there cannot work... then my boss see and come over and give me hint hint.. I saw the hint and tried again to no avail, sounds stupid right, then when the boss almost wanted to come over and do it for himself, i managed to get it out... Three Cheers!!! So i tried to boot up the laptop, and it managed to work, so i put it back, powered up, and then lo and behold again, the MOUSE SPOIL... hahaha... So i changed the mouse, redocked the laptop and it finally worked... YEAH!!!!
Well... lo and behold... after my lunch today and after doing some work, my boss laptop hanged.. couldnt "Ctrl, Alt, Del" at all. Had to do a power cycle of the laptop, which also means to force power down... then booted up in safe mood... can bootup.. then after i wanted to boot up normally, it hanged on me again. After a few more similar attempts, i recalled a common problem in my previous job. So i tried to take the laptop off the docking station.... which i have never done before.... then i was there trying here and there cannot work... then my boss see and come over and give me hint hint.. I saw the hint and tried again to no avail, sounds stupid right, then when the boss almost wanted to come over and do it for himself, i managed to get it out... Three Cheers!!! So i tried to boot up the laptop, and it managed to work, so i put it back, powered up, and then lo and behold again, the MOUSE SPOIL... hahaha... So i changed the mouse, redocked the laptop and it finally worked... YEAH!!!!
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Dunt know if its just me feeling feeling again or do i feel that whenever b*** walks past my table to find someone... he seems to peek at wat i am doing at the moment... i get those kinda of spying feelings whenever he passes by... other ppl dunt give me those kinda of feeling... strange..
Well... today is my one month anniversary in this company, so far i have tackled issues that were both challenging and interesting. Like for example reconfiguring outlook accounts, creating user login accounts, installing unfamilar software, and doing the weekly door access logs. I cant say i have learnt anything, but i must say that the things that i have learnt were mostly self learnt. One thing that i dont like about this place is that whenever they feel that i have not enough of work to do, they will try and get some stupid shit manual work for me to do like for example: manual checking through a pile of papers to determine wether the amounts are correct. What do they take me for? Some slave to do all the not useful but time consuming work? Or isit just me, despising all work that is not related to computers? Or have i learnt to complain and compare against all my previous experiences, feelings and relationships.
Well... today is my one month anniversary in this company, so far i have tackled issues that were both challenging and interesting. Like for example reconfiguring outlook accounts, creating user login accounts, installing unfamilar software, and doing the weekly door access logs. I cant say i have learnt anything, but i must say that the things that i have learnt were mostly self learnt. One thing that i dont like about this place is that whenever they feel that i have not enough of work to do, they will try and get some stupid shit manual work for me to do like for example: manual checking through a pile of papers to determine wether the amounts are correct. What do they take me for? Some slave to do all the not useful but time consuming work? Or isit just me, despising all work that is not related to computers? Or have i learnt to complain and compare against all my previous experiences, feelings and relationships.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Wah liew eh.... just now i went to inform my manager that i have did a manual check on the serial numbers of the Laptops that have been issued out... and that 4ppl are out on the job so have to wait until next week to confirm with the user itself... then she tell me that have to do something like a write up about the seminar that i went... feelings and recommendations... then she also tell me that i have to send her a weekly report of the chores that i have done... haizz.. wanna smoke also cannot smoke... sianzz... I think i would have to include a BIG HEADER which says server monitoring 1hr, backup log monitoring 1hr, change backup tapes 30mins... to smoke that i am very very the busy... haizz..
Monday, May 16, 2005
Well.... its that rotating hour lunch problem happening again.... i feel that it make no sense for us to strictly stick to the lunch hrs limits... as long as we do our work properly on time on target on schedule.....cause... if u expect us to leave on time for our lunches while everyone is busy rushing something either for u or the boss... how u expect us to leave one time.... Its true that when u say that if somebody says that they are busy then other ppl go and eat first....but if that other person has some lunch appointment with someone else at some other time.... how leh??? Nobody loves rules that nobody understands... so why make rules which are not understandable nor followable at all costs.... We cant force other collegues to come back on time... cause sometimes the food they ordered make take a long time to queue for it or the food may be so hot that i would take some time to cool down... superiors cant make the comment of telling the employees what to eat or not to eat right... so exceptions may occur... espically with the closure of the golden shoe for renovation... its simply not possible to leave at 12 on the dot and come back at 1pm on the dot...WHY!!! WHY!!! WHY!!!
Hmm... i have made an amazing discovery today... that my manager and my other collegue was previously working together in another company together... and now they are collegues again.... how lucky can you get?? or isit fated?? Usually when this kinda of questions appear on tv shows they will play one sound effect.... which is "Denn denn denn!!!" followed by manical laughter..."Hek Hek Hek!!!"... oh.. am i going mad.... arggg!!
Hmm... i have made an amazing discovery today... that my manager and my other collegue was previously working together in another company together... and now they are collegues again.... how lucky can you get?? or isit fated?? Usually when this kinda of questions appear on tv shows they will play one sound effect.... which is "Denn denn denn!!!" followed by manical laughter..."Hek Hek Hek!!!"... oh.. am i going mad.... arggg!!
Sunday, May 15, 2005
I am rushing for my assignments as i am typing this blog. This year i seem to be more slack when planning for my assignments. Which means i have simply no motivation watsoever to do my assignments, nor do any research for it. Maybe its because the subjects that i am taking this year are all very essay orientated......lalala... no mood to write liao...
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
lala.... just came back from lunch... had to wait for anyone to come back from their lunch before i could go... so i was waiting patiently for my turn lor... then happily... my manager sent us an interesting email before she went for her lunch...
Well... it is actually an ordinary mail in that the contents are to remind us that the official lunch hrs are between 12-2pm. Wat makes it interesting is that the fact that we admin department has to do a rotating between us so that one groupd would have to go first, and the other groupd would have to stay around so that they can help to pick up the calls. But then.... when everyone is busy doing watever urgent things that they have to do... they might not be able to go off at a schedule time of 12pm on the dot...and with that... whoever is in the second grp will not be able to come back at 2pm shld they really take an hr lunch. So... my question here is that... whats the moral of the story?? I dont know.... i dont understand the meaning of rotated lunch... when the business itself doesnt function 24/7. I dont believe that other companies dun have lunch hrs, and even if nobody picks up the call.... i think that whoever is calling would be able to guess that its lunch break time.... so.. why is the need... INTERESTING...
Well... it is actually an ordinary mail in that the contents are to remind us that the official lunch hrs are between 12-2pm. Wat makes it interesting is that the fact that we admin department has to do a rotating between us so that one groupd would have to go first, and the other groupd would have to stay around so that they can help to pick up the calls. But then.... when everyone is busy doing watever urgent things that they have to do... they might not be able to go off at a schedule time of 12pm on the dot...and with that... whoever is in the second grp will not be able to come back at 2pm shld they really take an hr lunch. So... my question here is that... whats the moral of the story?? I dont know.... i dont understand the meaning of rotated lunch... when the business itself doesnt function 24/7. I dont believe that other companies dun have lunch hrs, and even if nobody picks up the call.... i think that whoever is calling would be able to guess that its lunch break time.... so.. why is the need... INTERESTING...
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Today i had chicken pie for lunch!! woo huu... nice nice... yummy yummy yummy yum yum
yum... i had ordered 1/2 of the pie cause i was feeling extremely hungry.. and also because
i underestimated the hunger curbing abilities of that pie... in the end i onli eat half of
half the pie... hahaha
Well.... yesterday i was supposed to do my assignments, but after i took my dinner at
home... i was suddenly possesed by the sleeping ghost and felt so sleepy that after a while
i went of to my bed to sleep instead of doing my assignment.... bad on me.... bad girl... Hee... saw this name converter on someone whom i knew blog page and i couldnt resist
having a go at it.. and my name is.... (pls see below.. haha) Go on have a try... lalala
yum... i had ordered 1/2 of the pie cause i was feeling extremely hungry.. and also because
i underestimated the hunger curbing abilities of that pie... in the end i onli eat half of
half the pie... hahaha
Well.... yesterday i was supposed to do my assignments, but after i took my dinner at
home... i was suddenly possesed by the sleeping ghost and felt so sleepy that after a while
i went of to my bed to sleep instead of doing my assignment.... bad on me.... bad girl... Hee... saw this name converter on someone whom i knew blog page and i couldnt resist
having a go at it.. and my name is.... (pls see below.. haha) Go on have a try... lalala
Your Irish Name Is... |
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Wednesday, May 04, 2005
I so feel like shit today... Even the time that i am supposed to have lunch also must be controlled by her. Sibei sianz de leh.. I feel so the manipulated. Like i am not supposed to have a mind of my own. Then its like i never do my work then i go off for lunch like that. It so makes me feel that i am an irresponsible person like that... Cannot make it leh..
I am so thinking that if i am a male technician then i probably wouldnt be treated like that. But then i shldnt be thinking this way... if i keep on thinking negative like last time while i was in the bank, then i wouldnt be able to adapt to my new work position again... which might eventually lead to another job hopping session.....
Wah liew eh..... just kanna some stupid shit thing for one of my collegue. She went for a meeting with the boss with some figures that she ask me to do a pivot table for her. I followed her instructions and came out with a pivot table, and i even asked her to check if that is what she wanted. Then she say ok...... Then after the meeting with the boss, she keep on chasing after my neck telling me that she has something urgent for me to do.. then i kanna bomb!!!
Wah liew eh..... just kanna some stupid shit thing for one of my collegue. She went for a meeting with the boss with some figures that she ask me to do a pivot table for her. I followed her instructions and came out with a pivot table, and i even asked her to check if that is what she wanted. Then she say ok...... Then after the meeting with the boss, she keep on chasing after my neck telling me that she has something urgent for me to do.. then i kanna bomb!!! She showed me the figures from the pivot table that i had done for her. She told me that the boss feels that the figures are not correct as they are very the different from previous years. Then she tell me that the boss wans "US" to do a manual check of all the hardcopy documents to check if the figures are really correct. Then she ask me to do it... all by myself... she say boss tell "US" to do it... in the end is i do it. Then i already very the not happy that i am the one doing it... then i ask her when is the deadline for the thing... then she ask me to do it within two days....how the hell is that logically possible.!!!! Then hor... afterwards we find out that the figures that was used to compute the pivot table was wrong.... and that i was told to use a wrong column of figures... Then i told her that in this case... give me the correct figures and i will do a pivot table for her to show the boss again... she say no need.. just go ahead and check the papers as told by the boss.... THEN I BERI THE BEI SONG!!!! I tell her that since the data is wrong she shld just show the boss the correct figures and everything would be solved... and there would not be any wasted efforts to go through the pile of papers... then she like so the scarded that if the boss know do wrongly will die like that insist on not showing the boss the correct figures...with that.... MY VOLCANO EXPLODED!!!... and i told her that i wouldnt be able to finish this even if you give me a month to do it... ARGG..WAT THE FISH IS IT IN HIDING THE TRUTH FROM THE BOSS!!!!...
I am so thinking that if i am a male technician then i probably wouldnt be treated like that. But then i shldnt be thinking this way... if i keep on thinking negative like last time while i was in the bank, then i wouldnt be able to adapt to my new work position again... which might eventually lead to another job hopping session.....
Wah liew eh..... just kanna some stupid shit thing for one of my collegue. She went for a meeting with the boss with some figures that she ask me to do a pivot table for her. I followed her instructions and came out with a pivot table, and i even asked her to check if that is what she wanted. Then she say ok...... Then after the meeting with the boss, she keep on chasing after my neck telling me that she has something urgent for me to do.. then i kanna bomb!!!
Wah liew eh..... just kanna some stupid shit thing for one of my collegue. She went for a meeting with the boss with some figures that she ask me to do a pivot table for her. I followed her instructions and came out with a pivot table, and i even asked her to check if that is what she wanted. Then she say ok...... Then after the meeting with the boss, she keep on chasing after my neck telling me that she has something urgent for me to do.. then i kanna bomb!!! She showed me the figures from the pivot table that i had done for her. She told me that the boss feels that the figures are not correct as they are very the different from previous years. Then she tell me that the boss wans "US" to do a manual check of all the hardcopy documents to check if the figures are really correct. Then she ask me to do it... all by myself... she say boss tell "US" to do it... in the end is i do it. Then i already very the not happy that i am the one doing it... then i ask her when is the deadline for the thing... then she ask me to do it within two days....how the hell is that logically possible.!!!! Then hor... afterwards we find out that the figures that was used to compute the pivot table was wrong.... and that i was told to use a wrong column of figures... Then i told her that in this case... give me the correct figures and i will do a pivot table for her to show the boss again... she say no need.. just go ahead and check the papers as told by the boss.... THEN I BERI THE BEI SONG!!!! I tell her that since the data is wrong she shld just show the boss the correct figures and everything would be solved... and there would not be any wasted efforts to go through the pile of papers... then she like so the scarded that if the boss know do wrongly will die like that insist on not showing the boss the correct figures...with that.... MY VOLCANO EXPLODED!!!... and i told her that i wouldnt be able to finish this even if you give me a month to do it... ARGG..WAT THE FISH IS IT IN HIDING THE TRUTH FROM THE BOSS!!!!...
With that, i made my blood pressure rise so high that i started to have a terrible headache... THE END..
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Lalala... today i got the assignment of doing the Petty Cash In Charge thingy... Its so stressful when you have to deal with money payments. Especially with cash payments and cash passing here and there. If missing any money will be madness one wor... Then is ding ding ding liao...
I seem to be doing things that i have never expected to do in my working life in this new job.... Which is administrative work....something which i have always taken for granted. Like for example there would always be someone who would help me to do money claims and payments.. or someone who will be there to do my pay slips..hehe. I am so going to appreciate what others have done to make my life more comfortable in the future man....
I seem to be doing things that i have never expected to do in my working life in this new job.... Which is administrative work....something which i have always taken for granted. Like for example there would always be someone who would help me to do money claims and payments.. or someone who will be there to do my pay slips..hehe. I am so going to appreciate what others have done to make my life more comfortable in the future man....
Friday, April 22, 2005
Well... its finally friday today and i managed to scrape through three first days in my
new company. Hmm.... did the boss's son just walked out off his room just to spy on what was i doing mah??? Interesting...
I feel that this job will be a test of my knowledge and my ability to handle stress and
difficult situations such as when the is a computer failure.. I really hope that i will get
a chance to learn as much as it is possible in this company before i move on to another
company again.
new company. Hmm.... did the boss's son just walked out off his room just to spy on what was i doing mah??? Interesting...
I feel that this job will be a test of my knowledge and my ability to handle stress and
difficult situations such as when the is a computer failure.. I really hope that i will get
a chance to learn as much as it is possible in this company before i move on to another
company again.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Well.... its time now to let me do some fake typing on the computer. Well, its my third day at my new place now. So far so good. But it seems that my reporting manager wants me to report everything that i have done or happened to her everyday. Yesterday, i left on time cause there were no urgent matters that needs to be solved. Then hor, when i went to inform her that i was leaving, i sort of got a sianzz face reply. So i scarded that she was unhappy that i am leaving on time without finishing my work properly.
Well.... i am feeling kinda of stressed out in my work here. I think that i am giving myself too much pressure to be responsible for all the IT related breakdowns that have happened.
How come suddenly got so the many ppl klkking all over the place. Walking up and walking down and walking up and walking down over and over again... like what i was doing just now...
Wah liew eh... just now i go do something for some person, then i forget to minimise this notepad thingy.... then the person come here see my screen and then happily reading loudly to herself somemore.... lalala...
another wah liew eh... that person who read my this notepad thingy somemore still go and take my mentos cool chews from my table automatically wor.... dunno to happy or unhappy also....happy is that can gam gam with the person then can have one comarde in crime, unhappy is that i feeling that person not so powerful in the company... so is not a powerful allie.... and somemore that person is also new in the company like me, so nobody noes her well enough... but it seems like hmm.... lets wait and see lar...
Well.... i am feeling kinda of stressed out in my work here. I think that i am giving myself too much pressure to be responsible for all the IT related breakdowns that have happened.
How come suddenly got so the many ppl klkking all over the place. Walking up and walking down and walking up and walking down over and over again... like what i was doing just now...
Wah liew eh... just now i go do something for some person, then i forget to minimise this notepad thingy.... then the person come here see my screen and then happily reading loudly to herself somemore.... lalala...
another wah liew eh... that person who read my this notepad thingy somemore still go and take my mentos cool chews from my table automatically wor.... dunno to happy or unhappy also....happy is that can gam gam with the person then can have one comarde in crime, unhappy is that i feeling that person not so powerful in the company... so is not a powerful allie.... and somemore that person is also new in the company like me, so nobody noes her well enough... but it seems like hmm.... lets wait and see lar...
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Date: 27/01/2005
Day: Thursday
Time: 11.24am
Wah low eh....today kanna from the Lotus notes support personal with regards to the mailbox compacting thing..sianzzz...then make me feeling so the unfriendly towards the two ppl at the notes support side.... maybe they are just trying to follow the rules strictly in getting user to die die must do this.. die die must do that....if neber do this then cannot do that lor....sianzz... I loved doing that to other ppl sometime back... but i stopped it after getting negative responses for ppl.... Maybe i shld try giving negative responses to them see wat can happen....
So sianzzz... saw my results onli got one module under distinction, the rest just pass onli with one grade c and the other pass...so sianzz... i got one grade C... cannot make it sia...lalala
Wah... just saw someones long ago picture... looks so meancing sia...but at the same time beautiful lar... seems to be a pic taken long ago...wat the fish man... if i know how to guide the user to fill in the bloody form for APARD i would have guided him to do so.... here some ppl ask me to refer to trm with regards to APARD... then now u telling me to guide the person by my bloody self.... win liao lor.... a minute ago i was thinking that staying here a bit more long got no problem... but after u snook me again.... i am so going to leave this place.......
Day: Thursday
Time: 11.24am
Wah low eh....today kanna from the Lotus notes support personal with regards to the mailbox compacting thing..sianzzz...then make me feeling so the unfriendly towards the two ppl at the notes support side.... maybe they are just trying to follow the rules strictly in getting user to die die must do this.. die die must do that....if neber do this then cannot do that lor....sianzz... I loved doing that to other ppl sometime back... but i stopped it after getting negative responses for ppl.... Maybe i shld try giving negative responses to them see wat can happen....
So sianzzz... saw my results onli got one module under distinction, the rest just pass onli with one grade c and the other pass...so sianzz... i got one grade C... cannot make it sia...lalala
Wah... just saw someones long ago picture... looks so meancing sia...but at the same time beautiful lar... seems to be a pic taken long ago...wat the fish man... if i know how to guide the user to fill in the bloody form for APARD i would have guided him to do so.... here some ppl ask me to refer to trm with regards to APARD... then now u telling me to guide the person by my bloody self.... win liao lor.... a minute ago i was thinking that staying here a bit more long got no problem... but after u snook me again.... i am so going to leave this place.......
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Date: 26/01/2005
Day: Wednesday
Time: 5.18pm
Today is the one month anniversary of the Tsunami Disaster that happened off the coast of Indonesia...
Well.... so sianz now..suddenly i regret agreeing not to leave until they have found a replacement for me in this place...cause i was so looking forward to having one or two weeks of leave and stay at home after all the work that i did for the past year or so....had to save all my leave for my exams studying and exam.... that i didnt even take one day leave to go enjoy myself... the onli leave that i took to enjoy myself was a halfday leave to go and eat sushi... hehe
Sometimes i dun even understand why i work so hard for things that wunt get me anywhere nor do i get and advantages out of it...
Day: Wednesday
Time: 5.18pm
Today is the one month anniversary of the Tsunami Disaster that happened off the coast of Indonesia...
Well.... so sianz now..suddenly i regret agreeing not to leave until they have found a replacement for me in this place...cause i was so looking forward to having one or two weeks of leave and stay at home after all the work that i did for the past year or so....had to save all my leave for my exams studying and exam.... that i didnt even take one day leave to go enjoy myself... the onli leave that i took to enjoy myself was a halfday leave to go and eat sushi... hehe
Sometimes i dun even understand why i work so hard for things that wunt get me anywhere nor do i get and advantages out of it...
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Date: 25/01/2005
Day: Tuesday
Time: 1.01pm
Yeah.... ps finally replied to my mail after one whole week.... didnt know that it requires one whole week of hard work to come out with a testimonial for someone.... but i am glad that he took that much time to write it... cause it is so absolutely fantastic!!!... best of the best... he managed to bring out the best that i did over there... even though some of the things he wrote there are not very the accurate as i onli did javascripting and some asp coding.... but the way he phrase it is veri the wuu lala!! onli someone like him can smoke such a wonderful thing for me... hehe...i so want to show off the thing to everyone... haha... shld i print it??? hmm....yeah i shld...
Day: Tuesday
Time: 1.01pm
Yeah.... ps finally replied to my mail after one whole week.... didnt know that it requires one whole week of hard work to come out with a testimonial for someone.... but i am glad that he took that much time to write it... cause it is so absolutely fantastic!!!... best of the best... he managed to bring out the best that i did over there... even though some of the things he wrote there are not very the accurate as i onli did javascripting and some asp coding.... but the way he phrase it is veri the wuu lala!! onli someone like him can smoke such a wonderful thing for me... hehe...i so want to show off the thing to everyone... haha... shld i print it??? hmm....yeah i shld...
Monday, January 24, 2005
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Date: 19/01/2005
Day: Wednesday
Time: 11.45am
Wah.... today they interview another person wor.... its a guy... he looks so old...hehe..
i wonder the first impression that i give to other ppl is that i am old.... cause the ppl here managed to guess that i am the eldest in the family..
lala.... mailed ps regarding my testimonial.. he neber reply wor... thinkin he neber recieve the mail or he dun wan to reply to a external unfamilar mailing address..boo huu...want to get testimonial from him also difficult..dunno wat to say also.
Oh no....hehe... suddenly remember that i have to collect my sch books today... then realise that it is not today... its on the 26th...next next wed..sianzz..
lalala.... just had lunch from subway.... kanna bluff..the cashier confused me.. asking me wat drink i wan... ask me wan small medium or large... then i just say coke....cause i thought that she noe i wanted the set... then i happily looking at the cookies wondering which one shld i take...lalala...then in the end when the cashier said.... "5.50 please"... i blur blur just give her 6 dollars and go away..long time no eat subway liao... yum yum...healthy healthy..lalala
wah.... i thought my life was difficult... it seems that jo the life is more diffcult...went for meeting then kanna from the chairman..cause she neber bring the printed notes cause she wasnt informed...the go lunch also neber gio her...
Day: Wednesday
Time: 11.45am
Wah.... today they interview another person wor.... its a guy... he looks so old...hehe..
i wonder the first impression that i give to other ppl is that i am old.... cause the ppl here managed to guess that i am the eldest in the family..
lala.... mailed ps regarding my testimonial.. he neber reply wor... thinkin he neber recieve the mail or he dun wan to reply to a external unfamilar mailing address..boo huu...want to get testimonial from him also difficult..dunno wat to say also.
Oh no....hehe... suddenly remember that i have to collect my sch books today... then realise that it is not today... its on the 26th...next next wed..sianzz..
lalala.... just had lunch from subway.... kanna bluff..the cashier confused me.. asking me wat drink i wan... ask me wan small medium or large... then i just say coke....cause i thought that she noe i wanted the set... then i happily looking at the cookies wondering which one shld i take...lalala...then in the end when the cashier said.... "5.50 please"... i blur blur just give her 6 dollars and go away..long time no eat subway liao... yum yum...healthy healthy..lalala
wah.... i thought my life was difficult... it seems that jo the life is more diffcult...went for meeting then kanna from the chairman..cause she neber bring the printed notes cause she wasnt informed...the go lunch also neber gio her...
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Date: 18/01/2005
Day: Tuesday
Time: 1.06pm
I going to tender my resignation today... suddenly i have no bad feeling for this job... suddenly i feel that its not so bad working here... and suddenly i dun mind shifting from desk to desk...
Isit because i have been sitting on the boss desk for two days straight that i feel more secure. Or isit because i have become more confident of taking up calls.... handling ppl... or isit i am not getting alot of irritating ppl.... to ruin everyones life... Or isit because i am scarded that i cannot get another position somewhere else with this pay that they are giving me...i think that is the main main reason that i am scarded...Money money money money... everything is revolving around money these days...and i have yet to give the monthly payment to dad for the installment of the car...maybe maybe... I simply have no confidence in my abilities... and i doubt there would be anyone who would give me 1.8 again...Sianzz...
But i have already told my boss liao... so i can back out of this liao.... so i will have to learn to my fullest abilities the things that are around here....the things that i can pick up here...i shldnt regret my decision... everything about life is about decision.... if i always regret... how to move on.... just as how i didnt move on earlier while i was in SIA... made me have a lack of adequate knowledge in IT support skills.... so its right... i must move on... move on to another place where i would enjoy myself more throughly...to perform to the best of my abilities... okok... its decided... all uncertainthties would have to be faced with courage...!!! ONWARDS!!!
Wah... so fast wanna interview new ppl liao..... they strong ar....haiyah best..it for their own good also... they better get the infrastructure ready for the new person... otherwise mad again...
Day: Tuesday
Time: 1.06pm
I going to tender my resignation today... suddenly i have no bad feeling for this job... suddenly i feel that its not so bad working here... and suddenly i dun mind shifting from desk to desk...
Isit because i have been sitting on the boss desk for two days straight that i feel more secure. Or isit because i have become more confident of taking up calls.... handling ppl... or isit i am not getting alot of irritating ppl.... to ruin everyones life... Or isit because i am scarded that i cannot get another position somewhere else with this pay that they are giving me...i think that is the main main reason that i am scarded...Money money money money... everything is revolving around money these days...and i have yet to give the monthly payment to dad for the installment of the car...maybe maybe... I simply have no confidence in my abilities... and i doubt there would be anyone who would give me 1.8 again...Sianzz...
But i have already told my boss liao... so i can back out of this liao.... so i will have to learn to my fullest abilities the things that are around here....the things that i can pick up here...i shldnt regret my decision... everything about life is about decision.... if i always regret... how to move on.... just as how i didnt move on earlier while i was in SIA... made me have a lack of adequate knowledge in IT support skills.... so its right... i must move on... move on to another place where i would enjoy myself more throughly...to perform to the best of my abilities... okok... its decided... all uncertainthties would have to be faced with courage...!!! ONWARDS!!!
Wah... so fast wanna interview new ppl liao..... they strong ar....haiyah best..it for their own good also... they better get the infrastructure ready for the new person... otherwise mad again...
Friday, January 14, 2005
Date: 14/01/2005
Day: Friday
Time: 10.54am change to 12.18pm
lalala.... today is friday...yeah yeah!!.. well i have been here for two weeks already and my working enviroment still hasnt improved... as in that i am still moving from desk to desk everyday..
In my first week.. of shifting here and there...i was cursing and swearing and cursing everyday of my life...and now my mood has changed from curse to bo bian...to accepting that i am not going to be able to have any desk assigned to me within month...
I am so comtemplating about wether i shld resign this job or not...since i was so UNHAPPY about it... that now i am a bit used to the enviroment liao..but i still dun like not owning a piece of furniture..blar blar blar... then happily my public enemy no 1 called.... didnt want to pick up the call but everyone else was engaged on the line... so cannot siam siam siam...hear her call already my mood to quit come rushing up again....
Day: Friday
Time: 10.54am change to 12.18pm
lalala.... today is friday...yeah yeah!!.. well i have been here for two weeks already and my working enviroment still hasnt improved... as in that i am still moving from desk to desk everyday..
In my first week.. of shifting here and there...i was cursing and swearing and cursing everyday of my life...and now my mood has changed from curse to bo bian...to accepting that i am not going to be able to have any desk assigned to me within month...
I am so comtemplating about wether i shld resign this job or not...since i was so UNHAPPY about it... that now i am a bit used to the enviroment liao..but i still dun like not owning a piece of furniture..blar blar blar... then happily my public enemy no 1 called.... didnt want to pick up the call but everyone else was engaged on the line... so cannot siam siam siam...hear her call already my mood to quit come rushing up again....
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Date: 11/01/2005
Day: Tuesday
Time: 12.30pm
haha... this is the second day of the week that i am going to give this job consideration..wether to stay or to leave... that is the question... is this wat i want.... does this place allow me to grow in knowledge and skills...
Well... to summarise the skills that i have learnt for the past one week and one day...i learnt how to pick up calls properly...how not to tell ppl that i am new... how to fake knowledgeable when i dunt know anything... how to eat lunch with myself... how to migrate to a different table everyday... first day sit around....2nd day sit on leader desk.. 3rd and 4th day sit on boss desk... 5th day sit at someones desk... yesterday sit at someones desk then migrate to boss desk...then today.. sitting at boss desk again... Its amazing how i was told to start picking up calls on the second day of work...and giving fake advise to users..lalala...
Day: Tuesday
Time: 12.30pm
haha... this is the second day of the week that i am going to give this job consideration..wether to stay or to leave... that is the question... is this wat i want.... does this place allow me to grow in knowledge and skills...
Well... to summarise the skills that i have learnt for the past one week and one day...i learnt how to pick up calls properly...how not to tell ppl that i am new... how to fake knowledgeable when i dunt know anything... how to eat lunch with myself... how to migrate to a different table everyday... first day sit around....2nd day sit on leader desk.. 3rd and 4th day sit on boss desk... 5th day sit at someones desk... yesterday sit at someones desk then migrate to boss desk...then today.. sitting at boss desk again... Its amazing how i was told to start picking up calls on the second day of work...and giving fake advise to users..lalala...
Monday, January 10, 2005
Location: Office
Feelings now: Now toking to some person called Dorcas Tan... she trying to make the notifications of her lotus notes work properly... last time can work.. now cannot... dunno why... so now trying to get remote access to her pc to help see see wether can help her set set or not...lalalallalalala..four and a half more days till my trial for myself is over... otherwise.... lalalalala... madness to the unemployed..Haizz... wanna chat with someone..but i keep on finding myself complaining whenever i start chatting...then i would feel all depressed about my situation here... i noe that i can learn alot of things here if i have the heart to do so... but then i think that i dont have the heart to learn all these new things because i am trying to resist the changes in my life... the comforts of being the best there was around in the department... the safehouse feeling...haha... now i complaining to the notepad liao...hahaha...
Feelings now: Now toking to some person called Dorcas Tan... she trying to make the notifications of her lotus notes work properly... last time can work.. now cannot... dunno why... so now trying to get remote access to her pc to help see see wether can help her set set or not...lalalallalalala..four and a half more days till my trial for myself is over... otherwise.... lalalalala... madness to the unemployed..Haizz... wanna chat with someone..but i keep on finding myself complaining whenever i start chatting...then i would feel all depressed about my situation here... i noe that i can learn alot of things here if i have the heart to do so... but then i think that i dont have the heart to learn all these new things because i am trying to resist the changes in my life... the comforts of being the best there was around in the department... the safehouse feeling...haha... now i complaining to the notepad liao...hahaha...
Thursday, January 06, 2005
Haizz... today is thursday....my 4th day of work at my new place...
Wanted to put in all my feelings that i had on the first day but was too depressed to do so...
Really miss all my friends at SIA... all the people that i knew... all the ppl that knew me...haizz
Didnt realise how much their companionship meant to me until the very last moment...its as what people says "You dont know what you have until you lose them, so treasure every moment that you have."
Well... speaking about my new place... well... its located in a bank in Suntec... dun think i will disclose the banks name in case i get caught...working as an onsite helpdesk analyst...sounds nice right...."Analyst".. which means to analyse things... yup... and i am so analysing at my workplace... analysing what the heck the caller on the line is thinking....
Everyday i keep on asking myself a few questions "Is this what i really want? Is this what i want to pursue... is this the line of work that would allow me to show my fullest potential..will i shine through like i always do when i am concentrated on my work?? Do i regret my decision to leave SIA at a moment like this? Did i really want to leave SIA? Do i really want to climb up the social and corporate ladder and to rise among the talents??" all these questions keep bugging my mind...haizz...
Long ago while i was in SIA... everytime i kanna from mike.. i would feel like leaving and just leave the work for others to carry... but everytime something would stop me... i think its because i dunt want my friends to get too overloaded... too stressed...too frustrated...so i have always been unable to be successful in my job interviews.. and if i were to be quite successful... so thing would happen and i would lose the job.... haha... its as though GOD knew of the promise that i made to myself that i would only leave after the whole project was over...
But now my heart keeps on telling me to just run away... find somewhere else to hide... this job doesnt suit me.... i am not liked...not welcomed... Its so bad that i feel that i would explode or breakdown anytime soon... I was telling myself a year back that my status in SIA would never move forward... i would never be promoted... there would never be a pay rise...and i want to move to somewhere else where i can be promoted or at least go up one or two levels.. i dunt ask for more nor aspire to become a CEO... i just want to be rewarded for my hard work that i have given to the company...
And now that i have landed in a place where the possibility to move forward.... to be able to be rewarded for hard work... a place where i might get some recogniation... a place where promotion is possible....and i AM NOT HAPPY.... Why am i not happy???
Isit because i dont have a desk that i can call my own.... isit because i dont even have a chair to sit on.... isit because i dont feel welcome to their group.... isit because everyone seems so powerful and skillful.... isit because i dont even get a proper briefing from my boss....nor a proper orientation.... isit because everything is so restrictive... isit because i cant speak my mother tounge to anyone... isit because i was lazying around too much in SIA though i worked as hard.... isit because i dont feel comfortable to new places, new people, new attitudes...isit because there seems to be a lack of belonging that i feel....
WHY AM I FEELING THIS???? I used to be able to adjust... i used to be able to accept changes like the clouds accept the wind... i used to be able to cope with learning new things... i used to be power orientated.... i used to like a challenge...WHY??? WHY?? WHY???
My friends keep on telling me that its going to take sometime before i get used to the enviroment... but how do you get used to an enviroment where there is no proper place for you to work on... no proper place for me to even store my bag nor my cup...my paper, my book, my pens...NO.... i have nonthing.... I finally understand how some of my friends felt during their first week at Sia... but thats all too different too....Sia didnt expect us to work like experts on their second day at work.... didnt expect us not to call ourself a newbie...didnt exert pressure and stress on us..... ARGG.... i feel so depressed..... i am so sinking into depression..... DEPRESSION!!!!... haizz... i better stop this before i become obsessed...... arggggg....
Wanted to put in all my feelings that i had on the first day but was too depressed to do so...
Really miss all my friends at SIA... all the people that i knew... all the ppl that knew me...haizz
Didnt realise how much their companionship meant to me until the very last moment...its as what people says "You dont know what you have until you lose them, so treasure every moment that you have."
Well... speaking about my new place... well... its located in a bank in Suntec... dun think i will disclose the banks name in case i get caught...working as an onsite helpdesk analyst...sounds nice right...."Analyst".. which means to analyse things... yup... and i am so analysing at my workplace... analysing what the heck the caller on the line is thinking....
Everyday i keep on asking myself a few questions "Is this what i really want? Is this what i want to pursue... is this the line of work that would allow me to show my fullest potential..will i shine through like i always do when i am concentrated on my work?? Do i regret my decision to leave SIA at a moment like this? Did i really want to leave SIA? Do i really want to climb up the social and corporate ladder and to rise among the talents??" all these questions keep bugging my mind...haizz...
Long ago while i was in SIA... everytime i kanna from mike.. i would feel like leaving and just leave the work for others to carry... but everytime something would stop me... i think its because i dunt want my friends to get too overloaded... too stressed...too frustrated...so i have always been unable to be successful in my job interviews.. and if i were to be quite successful... so thing would happen and i would lose the job.... haha... its as though GOD knew of the promise that i made to myself that i would only leave after the whole project was over...
But now my heart keeps on telling me to just run away... find somewhere else to hide... this job doesnt suit me.... i am not liked...not welcomed... Its so bad that i feel that i would explode or breakdown anytime soon... I was telling myself a year back that my status in SIA would never move forward... i would never be promoted... there would never be a pay rise...and i want to move to somewhere else where i can be promoted or at least go up one or two levels.. i dunt ask for more nor aspire to become a CEO... i just want to be rewarded for my hard work that i have given to the company...
And now that i have landed in a place where the possibility to move forward.... to be able to be rewarded for hard work... a place where i might get some recogniation... a place where promotion is possible....and i AM NOT HAPPY.... Why am i not happy???
Isit because i dont have a desk that i can call my own.... isit because i dont even have a chair to sit on.... isit because i dont feel welcome to their group.... isit because everyone seems so powerful and skillful.... isit because i dont even get a proper briefing from my boss....nor a proper orientation.... isit because everything is so restrictive... isit because i cant speak my mother tounge to anyone... isit because i was lazying around too much in SIA though i worked as hard.... isit because i dont feel comfortable to new places, new people, new attitudes...isit because there seems to be a lack of belonging that i feel....
WHY AM I FEELING THIS???? I used to be able to adjust... i used to be able to accept changes like the clouds accept the wind... i used to be able to cope with learning new things... i used to be power orientated.... i used to like a challenge...WHY??? WHY?? WHY???
My friends keep on telling me that its going to take sometime before i get used to the enviroment... but how do you get used to an enviroment where there is no proper place for you to work on... no proper place for me to even store my bag nor my cup...my paper, my book, my pens...NO.... i have nonthing.... I finally understand how some of my friends felt during their first week at Sia... but thats all too different too....Sia didnt expect us to work like experts on their second day at work.... didnt expect us not to call ourself a newbie...didnt exert pressure and stress on us..... ARGG.... i feel so depressed..... i am so sinking into depression..... DEPRESSION!!!!... haizz... i better stop this before i become obsessed...... arggggg....